GOD WHY ME??????

Let's see here so yesterday i watched Julie and Julia and that made me want to get up and cook so i spent four hours cooking two different types of chicken, dumplings and homemade bread. I had a blast tho cuz i love to cook. Then today me and my sister get into this huge argument bcuz I wouldnt let her have any. Now for those of u who really know me, u know me and my sister do NOT get along. Anyways so basically again my mom took her side and told me if i dont respect her house ( I was upset and cursing) then i could get out so i did......but i dont have anywhere to go. And to top it off its freezing out here. *sigh* sometimes i wish i did end it all when i had a good chance. I dont know wat im going to do. I'm just sitting outside, at a bus stop wish my damn transition check came in from that stupid program so i could at least put my phone on....

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Ok so I haven't done this in a long time. Wow I just read my old posts and they are very foolish, weird and a bunch of rambling. I guess that's wat life is like for a teenager. Hmm I'm 21 now...nothing really exciting happened for me. I broke up wit my ex long ago, I went to this place called Job Corps for my GED and C.N.A training. The experience wasn't the best. I had fun at times but most of the time i couldn't wait to leave. The staff were pretty cool, except a couple ppl whom I wont name and who turned out to be a bigreason in why i left before finishing a second trade. The student made a big impact on the situation as well. I did meet some really good ppl there tho and I am grateful that i did go at least for that much. I met one the the best ppl there her name is Natara. I consider her to be a best friend tho I still have Mimi being the BEST. I went there for 9mons and now im home again, looking for a job and way to get out from under my family. Hmmm I've had my crushes on ppl that i shouldnt have had tho i dont see why not i am a grown woman after all. Anyways as far as my love life goes, there isnt anyone new nor have i met anyone that could make me happy. I dont think i like being single but i like knowing that maybe mr.right is out there for me and maybe i'll find him sooner rather then later.