GOD WHY ME??????

Let's see here so yesterday i watched Julie and Julia and that made me want to get up and cook so i spent four hours cooking two different types of chicken, dumplings and homemade bread. I had a blast tho cuz i love to cook. Then today me and my sister get into this huge argument bcuz I wouldnt let her have any. Now for those of u who really know me, u know me and my sister do NOT get along. Anyways so basically again my mom took her side and told me if i dont respect her house ( I was upset and cursing) then i could get out so i did......but i dont have anywhere to go. And to top it off its freezing out here. *sigh* sometimes i wish i did end it all when i had a good chance. I dont know wat im going to do. I'm just sitting outside, at a bus stop wish my damn transition check came in from that stupid program so i could at least put my phone on....