Life

It hurts so much when the guy u want doesn't want u, when u know deep in ur gut and heart that u both belong together it hurts and it makes u sad and angry and weepy and everything. Was it my fault? Did i do something wrong? Am i the only 1 who feels this way? These questions and more run thru my mind like a skipping CD over and over that nagging part. I'm so lonely and sad and hurt. I need the true passion of life, the happiness of friends and a lover. I want that complete feeling of togetherness. I just dont know where 2 look. Online, not so safe offline can b the same way. It sucks that the world is like how it is. And it sucks even more being a big black woman cuz its not easy finding some1 as it would b 2 either just b skinny or b another race. I guess the old sayings " life sucks" or "life's not fair" seems so true.