Make believe..and maybe it'll come true

I always thought that if i pretend and dream and think about something, it would most likely come true. I thought that at least 1 dream would come true but eh who cares anymore cuz i dont. y care about something when it doesnt even matter at all?. Letter 2 u was suppose 2 b my push, my hope, my happiness. Its not and im ok wit that. I wanna say sry 2 the person who "Letter 2 u" was meant for. I understand and get that nothing can happen and nothing ever will and im sry for everything that i put u through. Being friends may be difficult cuz i feel like now u want 2 control my life, u dont want me but u dont want me 2 b wit any1 else or want me 2 b happy. Im not gonna let that happen. We r friends thats it nothing more or less. Anyways for whoever reads my blogs im sry about the confusion im just as confused as u.