Make believe..and maybe it'll come true

I always thought that if i pretend and dream and think about something, it would most likely come true. I thought that at least 1 dream would come true but eh who cares anymore cuz i dont. y care about something when it doesnt even matter at all?. Letter 2 u was suppose 2 b my push, my hope, my happiness. Its not and im ok wit that. I wanna say sry 2 the person who "Letter 2 u" was meant for. I understand and get that nothing can happen and nothing ever will and im sry for everything that i put u through. Being friends may be difficult cuz i feel like now u want 2 control my life, u dont want me but u dont want me 2 b wit any1 else or want me 2 b happy. Im not gonna let that happen. We r friends thats it nothing more or less. Anyways for whoever reads my blogs im sry about the confusion im just as confused as u.

Oh no......

With just a few words my whole world came crashing down.....the question-" Do i bug u or get on ur nerves?" *silence* Me- "yea i know i do, it surprises me 2 lol" Him-"Well goodnite" Me-"? uh goodnite then" Him-"No u dont get on my nerves much anymore." Omg i got on ur nerves?? wow now everything fits but how?? wat did i do wrong?? All i ever wanted 2 do was b ur's. Wat did i do?? how did i get on ur nerves?? Now i c how it all is, now i c the WHY. 4 Whoever reads this, "Letter 2 u" MEANS NOTHING NOW!!!

Empty

Empty...i have nothing. I have no friends. I have no job. I don't go 2 skool. I have no money, no bf, no nothing. My life is empty. My only friend is my computer. My sad sry life is this computer. It holds the music, the convos, the only person that could possible b my best friend but lives miles and miles away. I need something. I feel so lost, alone, empty.
I need the love, the care, the hope. Im so alone............