What's new wit you?

So wats new wit me hmm well I had an interview wit this company called Environment Massachusetts. It's like a telemarketing company (door to door donation thing) Anyways so I found out about this from my friend Natara and we set up interviews. Everything went well and we got hired and asked back for the orientation  process which consist of us learning specific lines to say to people. Now the lady had already said it's ur first day so its ok if u dont get it packed down right away (we had about 30 mins to practice) then when we were practicing it with another woman, we were doing good just not perfect like robots. The woman who said it was ok if we didnt get it, pulled us aside and said " Looks like ur not getting our wrap, but thanks for coming." OMG I wanted to punch that bitch out. But I held my cool, said thank u and walked away. Now for good news, I'm seeing someone!!! His name is Chris and I met him online of course. He's so sweet and nice and caring. He's not wat I usually go for and I dont see why I'm so hooked on him but I am and I aint letting go lol. I hope things last and go just the way I dream it......

Wat a girl wants

I always realized that wat i want most outta life is love and happiness. I've always been told that im living in a fantasy world but i mean wanting love and happiness isnt so difficult 2 get is it? My best friend and I share the same wantings out of life. To b told promises even if its a lie. To share everything wit the 1 person i love the most. To have everything i've ever wanted out of life. Sometimes its hard 2 find that complete happiness and sometimes when u think u've found it, it may not actually b there........

FINALLY!!!!!!

I got my wish finally! i have the love of my life now. He of course was just pushing me away 4 various reasons but knowing he loved me and really couldnt stay away. I love him so much and even tho he hurt me b4 i love him enough 2 give him 1 LAST CHANCE. If he screws it up this time i'll never go back. He told me he loves me :) that made me so happy that i cried i waited so long 2 hear him say that. I hope everything works out wit us bcuz i dont ever wanna b witout my darling love. And im no longer confused!!

Make believe..and maybe it'll come true

I always thought that if i pretend and dream and think about something, it would most likely come true. I thought that at least 1 dream would come true but eh who cares anymore cuz i dont. y care about something when it doesnt even matter at all?. Letter 2 u was suppose 2 b my push, my hope, my happiness. Its not and im ok wit that. I wanna say sry 2 the person who "Letter 2 u" was meant for. I understand and get that nothing can happen and nothing ever will and im sry for everything that i put u through. Being friends may be difficult cuz i feel like now u want 2 control my life, u dont want me but u dont want me 2 b wit any1 else or want me 2 b happy. Im not gonna let that happen. We r friends thats it nothing more or less. Anyways for whoever reads my blogs im sry about the confusion im just as confused as u.