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Ok so I haven't done this in a long time. Wow I just read my old posts and they are very foolish, weird and a bunch of rambling. I guess that's wat life is like for a teenager. Hmm I'm 21 now...nothing really exciting happened for me. I broke up wit my ex long ago, I went to this place called Job Corps for my GED and C.N.A training. The experience wasn't the best. I had fun at times but most of the time i couldn't wait to leave. The staff were pretty cool, except a couple ppl whom I wont name and who turned out to be a bigreason in why i left before finishing a second trade. The student made a big impact on the situation as well. I did meet some really good ppl there tho and I am grateful that i did go at least for that much. I met one the the best ppl there her name is Natara. I consider her to be a best friend tho I still have Mimi being the BEST. I went there for 9mons and now im home again, looking for a job and way to get out from under my family. Hmmm I've had my crushes on ppl that i shouldnt have had tho i dont see why not i am a grown woman after all. Anyways as far as my love life goes, there isnt anyone new nor have i met anyone that could make me happy. I dont think i like being single but i like knowing that maybe mr.right is out there for me and maybe i'll find him sooner rather then later.

WOOOOW!!!

So much has happened since my last post. Well my true love came here, Feb 14 2009. He came here from kansas and move into my place wit my fam cuz he didnt have anywhere else 2 go. We had fun and not so much fun times. We argued alot but i don't think i could have imagined life witout him. Then Dec 14 2009, he came 2 me saying he needed 2 leave and we had 2 break up. It was soo many reasons y he wanted 2 leave. We got back 2gether tho just b4 christmas cuz we love each other sooo much. I was trying 2 convince him 2 stay but no matter wat i did or said he said no. The in April of this yr he gave me a maybe and i was beyond happy. (Now i know ur prob like "Damn wat a loser, she sounds so desprete.") but i wasn't desprete i just wanted my first love, the love of my life, to stay in boston and be wit me. Well no matter wat he still left. At first he wanted 2 just have a long distance relationship and i was like "Hell no!! if u can't stay then 4get it." It's been a little over a month now since he left and i c how much i really miss him and how much i love and need him in my life. I try telling him this and at first he was all like "No u was right, i shouldn't ask u 2 stay wit me when we're miles from each other." Maybe he just wants 2 b single again but that would b weird cuz according 2 his blog and wat he told me b4, he loves me and wants a life wit me and doesnt want 2 b single. All i can say now is im waiting 4 his lastest answer 2 my lastest questions and if he wants this 2 work then wonderful if not then ok i'll move on and start a new life.

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Wat a girl wants

I always realized that wat i want most outta life is love and happiness. I've always been told that im living in a fantasy world but i mean wanting love and happiness isnt so difficult 2 get is it? My best friend and I share the same wantings out of life. To b told promises even if its a lie. To share everything wit the 1 person i love the most. To have everything i've ever wanted out of life. Sometimes its hard 2 find that complete happiness and sometimes when u think u've found it, it may not actually b there........

FINALLY!!!!!!

I got my wish finally! i have the love of my life now. He of course was just pushing me away 4 various reasons but knowing he loved me and really couldnt stay away. I love him so much and even tho he hurt me b4 i love him enough 2 give him 1 LAST CHANCE. If he screws it up this time i'll never go back. He told me he loves me :) that made me so happy that i cried i waited so long 2 hear him say that. I hope everything works out wit us bcuz i dont ever wanna b witout my darling love. And im no longer confused!!

Make believe..and maybe it'll come true

I always thought that if i pretend and dream and think about something, it would most likely come true. I thought that at least 1 dream would come true but eh who cares anymore cuz i dont. y care about something when it doesnt even matter at all?. Letter 2 u was suppose 2 b my push, my hope, my happiness. Its not and im ok wit that. I wanna say sry 2 the person who "Letter 2 u" was meant for. I understand and get that nothing can happen and nothing ever will and im sry for everything that i put u through. Being friends may be difficult cuz i feel like now u want 2 control my life, u dont want me but u dont want me 2 b wit any1 else or want me 2 b happy. Im not gonna let that happen. We r friends thats it nothing more or less. Anyways for whoever reads my blogs im sry about the confusion im just as confused as u.