Wat a girl wants

I always realized that wat i want most outta life is love and happiness. I've always been told that im living in a fantasy world but i mean wanting love and happiness isnt so difficult 2 get is it? My best friend and I share the same wantings out of life. To b told promises even if its a lie. To share everything wit the 1 person i love the most. To have everything i've ever wanted out of life. Sometimes its hard 2 find that complete happiness and sometimes when u think u've found it, it may not actually b there........

FINALLY!!!!!!

I got my wish finally! i have the love of my life now. He of course was just pushing me away 4 various reasons but knowing he loved me and really couldnt stay away. I love him so much and even tho he hurt me b4 i love him enough 2 give him 1 LAST CHANCE. If he screws it up this time i'll never go back. He told me he loves me :) that made me so happy that i cried i waited so long 2 hear him say that. I hope everything works out wit us bcuz i dont ever wanna b witout my darling love. And im no longer confused!!

Make believe..and maybe it'll come true

I always thought that if i pretend and dream and think about something, it would most likely come true. I thought that at least 1 dream would come true but eh who cares anymore cuz i dont. y care about something when it doesnt even matter at all?. Letter 2 u was suppose 2 b my push, my hope, my happiness. Its not and im ok wit that. I wanna say sry 2 the person who "Letter 2 u" was meant for. I understand and get that nothing can happen and nothing ever will and im sry for everything that i put u through. Being friends may be difficult cuz i feel like now u want 2 control my life, u dont want me but u dont want me 2 b wit any1 else or want me 2 b happy. Im not gonna let that happen. We r friends thats it nothing more or less. Anyways for whoever reads my blogs im sry about the confusion im just as confused as u.

So thats how it starts...

so i experienced something but omg it wasn't the whole thing but it was close. It hurt so much but i find myself wanting 2 finish it all. I'm so weird lol i dont but i do. it hurts like HELL!! but i feel like i need a little bit more omg omg im crazy........

Oh no......

With just a few words my whole world came crashing down.....the question-" Do i bug u or get on ur nerves?" *silence* Me- "yea i know i do, it surprises me 2 lol" Him-"Well goodnite" Me-"? uh goodnite then" Him-"No u dont get on my nerves much anymore." Omg i got on ur nerves?? wow now everything fits but how?? wat did i do wrong?? All i ever wanted 2 do was b ur's. Wat did i do?? how did i get on ur nerves?? Now i c how it all is, now i c the WHY. 4 Whoever reads this, "Letter 2 u" MEANS NOTHING NOW!!!

letter 2 u

Eh im sry i think i will feel much better if i say this so here goes: i still think we r soul mates, that we r meant 2 b wit each other. I know i know ur tired of all this but im sry it was bugging me 2 keep it in i had 2 say it some how lol i still love u soo very very much and it kills me that u dont want 2 b together look i dont want 2 start any more problems i'll take the friendship that ur offering if u do happen 2 get this just 4get about it ok and im sry again god i love u so much only wish u felt the same way about me..its odd how i believe we r soul mates being so far from each other but some ppl arent even lucky enough 2 find love once i found it it just hasnt accepted it ur my everything ******* ****** u mean the world 2 me and i dont care if u dont want 2 accept that!!

Empty

Empty...i have nothing. I have no friends. I have no job. I don't go 2 skool. I have no money, no bf, no nothing. My life is empty. My only friend is my computer. My sad sry life is this computer. It holds the music, the convos, the only person that could possible b my best friend but lives miles and miles away. I need something. I feel so lost, alone, empty.
I need the love, the care, the hope. Im so alone............